It's been a while

So, I sit here on my computer typing away and trying to figure out exactly what to write since it has been a long time. I am currently listening to iTunes and using other peoples internet, I mean i could use the internet that belongs to my mom but what the fun in that when you can explore other peoples networks and print off obscene things on the their printers...just kidding about that last part. In all seriousness though it has been a while since I last posted and now that i think about it a significant amount of events have preceded since said last post. I would like to think that I am a stronger writer, but most assuredly I am not, I can deal with this fact though. Orchard Place really does suck though, I am not able to bring in anything in to the actual place without said compact discs or books getting rejected. So I sit here and ponder with the limited time I have on the computer and my limited time I have at home. My sisters and brother are playing outside while I sit here and type away. Now that I have graduated it would be nice to say that I see things in a different perspective now, but unfortunately I am still limited by what I am able to do. I would like to also say that I have learned a great deal from my final year in West Des Moines education, but the truth is I have not. The principles of a solid work ethic are still starting to dawn upon me and the likelihood of a successful and fulfilling life is still dwindling in the mist of the most confusing horizon that I have ever looked upon. The possibilities are still there though and I am not doubting them either, I am going to try my hardest and try to relatively make a success at what I do but the difficulties in doing so are quite complicated. Since that sentence did not make any sense I will end on a more positive note. Even though life has seemed to drag me down sometimes i know that the possibilities are still out there and I know life can only get better from here. Thank you for listening.

Schedule Scmedule...?

1. Off
2. Pre-Calc-B with Mrs. Apslund
3. P.E. with Swenson
4. Advanced Comp. with Mr. Graziano
5. AP Us History with Mr. Neal
6. Economics with Mrs. Sorrentino?
7. Astronomy with with Pond
8. Off

That's it so there it is pretty simple bare minimum no counselors needed.

What?

I think I'm starting to go a little crazy my mind is absolutely racing these past couple of days, ever since this week really. I started at Target and had electronics training today, and enjoyed it. I've thought of 200 mime skit ideas and 57 skits in the past 3 days. I don't know what's happening, ideas just keep constantly coming to me, I've started writing science fiction, which is something I haven't done for 4 years or so. Some many things are coming in my mind i don't know what to do and it's hard to...output them somehow, there still in my head and some on paper but i can only do so much. My music taste is as well getting more simplistic as I go, i find my self listening to so much as well, Bright Eyes and M. Ward most recently. I've also have kept in little to no contact for the past week, i refuse to call anyone directly at all, i seem to only pick up the phone and never use it, i can't concentrate. There's so much i want to do, but i lack the materials and brains (coming also to the realization that i am by far really stupid and dumb). I really am starting to doubt myself in so many ways, maybe, since i am a true idiot, i'm not good at things i thought i was, Role playing, science, miming, improv, reading? I don't know, all i could use right now is a little reassurance but there's none to come, i'm trying to avoid everything and everyone, and surprisingly they seem to be fine, the world keeps turning as i come to ultimate realizations about myself, which no good comes from. No picture.

Long Last

Here I am...sitting listening to music and finally after quite the long amount of time have decided to make another blog post...I know many of you have been sitting on the edge of your seats waiting for this, but i tell you there is no need to act like my posts have any relevance in your life. Now back to the subject at time, i have had a quest similar Thomas, but instead of listening to as many artists as possible i have decided to get as much music in my iTunes library as possible and then make the eventual purchase of an iPod, i used to have one but...yeah...From doing this i have found quite a bit out about my musical taste...i think what the fuck wiuld be a good description, i generally seem to like more than i thought, although i have come to the conclusion that Space Oddity by David Bowie is a fantastic song. My life this far has been shifting back and forth in moods. Some days i find myself in a decent mood able to stand human contact and accept others interactions, but at the same time i find myself doing the exact opposite of that. I'm mixing between so many pills right now i have no idea what's going on anymore and i just trudge it along trying to find some sort of...uneven balance, something that isn't perfect but still has balance in it's name, no matter how grammatically odd it sounds.Quitting Hy-vee was a good idea, and yet my money is drying out and i'm scrounging to find cash for gas, well next week it's job hunting, oh boy...i'll do anything not to go back to Hy-Vee...so i've been fairly stress free in that department of the South Kyleton Mall (yes i just compared my self to a mall). Improv is going okay, well i think for everyone else, but otherwise okay, i mean i doubt myself so much in this area and my just general abilities in improv that all i ever think about is dropping the show, i mean at practice i distract everyone from there scenes and i generally mood swing sometimes to the point where i either contribute to much annoying shit, or just don't contribute at all...i'm still debating on the subject though. Still listening to Daivd Bowie...nice...my homework once again is not getting done either...i've been reluctant to line up another appointment with my psychologist, but i think it would be better if i did. I guess prom is coming up, i'm still completely confused about what exactly is going on...i mean i've been told but i've heard some many thing from different people i'm utterly and completely confused. Maybe i'll just wait and see what happens. I'm struggling to speak anymore, it first happened at mimes accidentally but then it's becoming more and more of a occurance. I'm trying to see things on a lighter side for a while, but it's to difficult when probability is fun to toy around with...or is it...i don't know. I feel i should be distancing myself more, but highschool all knowingly consumes me. My cellphone is shitting out on me, i think i need to get a new one. Little known fact...if your a crack dealer the probability of you getting killed is 4 in 1 in turn the most dangerous job in america. I have a large list of books i have to read, more of free reading...i've been trying to learn more about eastern political philosophy because i've read so much on western, i'll see how it turns out though, i have some interesting texts lined up. I hate P.E. I like being sick, i miss school, i wish i could miss more school, it's so...i don't know even more. That's all. For this week's picture we have

2nd Semester Schedule

They finally got it fixed, here it is.

1st Period: Alg 2/Trig B w/ Mrs. Aanonson

2nd Period: Modern Birt Lit w/ Mr. Schebel

3rd Period: AP Computer Science w/ Mr. Cochran

4th Period: P.E. w/ Mr.Thorton

5th Period: AP Euro w/ Mrs. Broderick

6th Period: US History w/ Mrs. Hinton

7th Period: Physics w/ Mr. Pedersen

8th Period: Off

Well, there you have and for this post's picture of Green Arrow #68. Enjoy.

Difficult

I find it increasingly hard to focus at this time of night. I had a drink to stay awake to study for my math and AP Euro finals today. I found that my U.S. history final was one of the easiest finals i have ever taken, 115 questions took me about 30 minutes and then the rest of the time i listened to Frankenixon (fuck you thane), and annoyed Mr. Kelly as usuall but he eventually just got up mid conversation and walked to the other side of the room. Maybe if i painted myself silver i would have had more luck. 3 more finals to go, not to stressed but maybe that's part of the anti-depressants talking, i don't know. I find lately that i've started seeing things i sit at home alone at night waiting for someone to call and i answer the phone and talk to myself for thirty minutes, set down the phone and act like nothing happened. What the fuck is the matter with me? I still haven't conformed to the new blogger so i stick with the old school for now until i am forced to change or get bored. Peer pressure might help as well. Thane's mom got tickets to Jim Gaffigan for Dylan, him, and i so, i'm pretty fucking stoked. Hmm. There seems to be alot of cursing in this post. My new schedule was fu...screwed up. I have a early bird math and first off and no 8th off. That kind of sucks, i'm getting it changed so currently i have no schedule. I think i should study for my math final right now...no...i'll keep on rambling. Getting slowly and slowly more addicted to Final Fantasy XII and i blame that for 30% of my refusal to study. My half birthday is in a month and 6 days. I'm starting to lose my grip on the world again. There was a man at Hy-vee the other day i saw when i was sacking that had only one finger, and that was his middle finger, i was curious to see how he would pick at his nose with the finger, but obvioulsy didn't ask. IHSSA is going okay still, still think i'm a bad anchor and Jordan and I actually make a fairly good team. I find myself slowly losing weight, i think i should eat more than one meal a day. Dark Tower comic book comes out in about a month. I'm currently working on a film project trying to write a screenplay for an idea i've been working on, and a few side comic book projects. My batman story is coming out pretty well, i like it. i should probably be studying for math right now, i'm bored. Oh well, this post's picture is of Dark Tower #1, if any of you are familiar with Steven King you'll like this one. Enjoy.

Recycled

I'm back again with a post, yes a post, any who my winter break went well i guess. I got Civilization 4, Age of Empires 3, Sid Meier's Pirates!, Absolute Sandman Vol.1, Final Fantasy XII, Lego Star Wars 2, Marvel: Ultimate Alliance, Justice League Season's 1 and 2, Justice League Unlimited Season 1, Black and White 2, Call of Duty 2 (yes not 3 Dylan), and that's about it, and some more graphic novels, most of that i bought with gift certificates, almost all of it actually, but oh well. Also bought the Squid and The Whale which is one of my top 10 movies, dark comedy of course, if you want to see it ask me, I'll be glad to lend the movie to you (although thane has it right now, and the Life Aquatic as well, i guess I've introduced him into the world of Dark Comedies and he seems to like them). In the radio station it's a common joke to put people's stuff in the recycling bin and well, mainly most of my stuff goes in there though, but anyways, i left three text books in there, after Val had put them there (although i was reluctant to get them out), i come in the next day and i can't find my textbooks, which would usually still be in there, turns out i owe about 195 dollars or possibly more to the school for losing them, shit, that 2 weeks worth of pay, but...i can't believe i lost 3 i mean I've never lost one before and the first time i do i lose 3. Oh well, really nothing to do here, it's a little late, i just finished all my programs for the quarter so my grade should go up significantly. At Hy-vee we had one Tickle Me Elmo 10th anniversary addition on Christmas Eve, so i decide to buy this fifty dollar toy for my brother, I'm excited to give it to him and as i walk into the house and show him the box he became instantly fascinated. When you pull the lid to the box up Elmo makes as sound "Help get me out of here it tickles to much" of course in turn i get him out for him, the instant he comes out and i turn him on, my brother screams in terror as Elmo begins to...well..giggle? more like having a seizure on the floor and possibly no joke suggestably masturbating. He screams and runs up stairs. My thirteen year old sisters and 16 year old cousin are simply fascinated by it though and they begin to play with it and eventually almost torment my little brother(Josh). He was deeply terrified, my parents set some cookies on the table and told Josh to go and get them but as he ran to the table he realized the Tickle Me Elmo was on the top, so he in turn turned around to quickly tripped on his head got up in fear and ran to my dad and step-mom and asked for them to get him the cookies. My dad says "Why can't you get them?" my brother responds (note he's 3 years old) "ELMO!" and points his finger in the direction fo the table. Obviously i wasted 50 dollars, one of these days i'm going to bring it to school, when i don't know, but i eventually will. Well that's all i have to say for now i guess, kind of shorter post though. And for this post's picture: The Question, who is a detective with no face. Enjoy.